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[May. 14th, 2008|03:10 am] |
I've had an unusually bad day, physically and emotionally.
I'm dizzy, I'm weak, I don't feel like eating, and I'm so tired. And I feel this enormous sense of dread and loss that pervades my exhausted, thought-ridden brain.
I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to have more horrible dreams like last nite. I want to pretend I don't know most of my friends. I want everything to go away.
*deep sigh*
If I just keep going, it'll pass, right? This hell always passes. But it burns indescribably first. |
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[May. 13th, 2008|12:00 am] |
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http://feeds.villagevoice.com/~r/articles/savage_love/~3/289927160/0820,my-boyfriend-s-kink-is-getting-fat-what-do-i-do,440948,24.html http://villagevoice.com/people/0820,my-boyfriend-s-kink-is-getting-fat-what-do-i-do,440948,24.html Q: I'm a 31-year-old man, and my girlfriend is 28. We've been in a monogamous relationship for four years. Recently, we've been doing the long-distance thing, and we're going to be doing it for a while until I can move from Canada to the United States. This is our problem: She brought up the idea of an open relationship until I get down there. I said OK—trying to be GGG—then called her back 24 hours later and reneged.Dan, I can't . . . read more (By Dan Savage) |
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| Savage Lovecast |
[May. 13th, 2008|12:00 am] |
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http://feeds.villagevoice.com/~r/articles/savage_love/~3/289898630/0820,my-boyfriend-s-k,440948,24.html http://villagevoice.com/people/0820,my-boyfriend-s-k,440948,24.html Q: I'm a 31-year-old man, and my girlfriend is 28. We've been in a monogamous relationship for four years. Recently, we've been doing the long-distance thing, and we're going to be doing it for a while until I can move from Canada to the United States. This is our problem: She brought up the idea of an open relationship until I get down there. I said OK—trying to be GGG—then called her back 24 hours later and reneged.Dan, I can't stand the idea . . . read more (By Dan Savage) |
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| Forgetting Sarah Marshall |
[May. 14th, 2008|12:12 am] |
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So, we ended up catching Forgetting Sarah Marshall tonight. Judd Apatow is rather hit or miss for me; I adored Freaks and Geeks, thought Undeclared was somewhat above average, really didn't like 40-Year-Old Virgin, and skipped Knocked Up.
All four of us were laughing pretty hysterically through the whole thing. It doesn't hurt that Jason Segel is one of my favorite of his regulars (and actually, it was written by Segel, not Apatow). Romantic comedies often aren't my thing; their underlying assumptions often fundamentally irritate me enough that I don't enjoy them. This was definitely an exception. Also, it's wonderfully raunchy, in a whole-hearted way that feels paradoxically clean to me (then again, that may just be me). |
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News: Exciting News!
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[May. 13th, 2008|11:37 pm] |
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http://feeds.penny-arcade.com/~r/pa-mainsite/~3/289794615/ http://www.penny-arcade.com/2008/05/13/exciting-news/ Gabe : So we can finally announce that our game will be out on May 21st. IT will be released on Xbox Live as well as our own digital games store Greenhouse. If you do decide to download from Greenhouse you can grab one code that will give you access to the PC, Mac and Linux versions. I'm super excited to hear what you guys think. If you're looking forward to the game you should check out the new trailer over on the Xbox Live site. -Gabe out |
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| Dyin' is easy; comedy's hard |
[May. 13th, 2008|11:42 pm] |
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http://sideshow.me.uk/smay08.htm#05140020 Mick Arran, "Corpo's Get States to Subsidize Low Wages: We've said I dunno how many times that Wal-mart is the leader in scamming taxpayer money, getting city, county, and state govts to pay for things they ought to be paying for themselves. We've pointed out the way Wal-mart goes after tax abatements; gets cities to pay their water, sewage, and electricity bills; has counties or states pay to build the roads leading into and out of WM Superstore parking lots, and so on. We've detailed how their refusal to a) provide reasonable health insurance to their employees, or b) pay them enough to buy reasonable health insurance for themselves. In fact, so many Wal-mart employees are paid so little that it's not uncommon for them to have to go on Welfare or apply for food stamps. Well, WM has successfully taught these scams to the rest of the US corporatocracy." Mick also has a rundown on how the Bush Illusion is coming apart."Liberal Fascism: Two Words Next to Each Other." Charges have been dropped against the alleged "20th hijacker", because his confession came under torture - but they say he can never be freed. (Also: "I have determined that you pose a security threat." The new Republican campaign slogan. "Jesus Made Me Puke" - Matt Taibbi Undercover with the Christian Right. Jimmy Carter says, "Presidents Should Not Be Liars." Atrios recommended this episode of This American Life, "The Giant Pool of Money". If you still can't make sense of the whole mortgage crisis thing, this is the easy way to work it out. |
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| rrgh. decisions to be made. |
[May. 13th, 2008|03:49 pm] |
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So, I've been barely managing to keep up with my personal obligations around the house (sorry the laundry didn't get done this weekend, Shawn) and hardly seeing my friends due to the combined load of school and work. And I'm starting to blow off class (lately, if I know that there won't be any new topics covered in logic, but just going over proof sets, I'm staying home to sleep -- and this is my FAVORITE CLASS) and generally displaying signs of early burnout.
I had decided a few weeks back that summer classes were out of the question, mainly because I had been invited to go with my parents to see some Shakespeare in Ashland during the Art Institute's break (which does not coincide with SCCC's break), but also because of the impending burnout, my desire to stay home and knit and garden, and the chance to sink a bunch of time into lip balm concerns.
Then I found out last night that my parents had decided to do the Ashland thing later in the summer, which means that I can't go, and they had neglected to tell me. (That's what yesterday's pissy post was about.) And now I've found out that my awesome superhero of a botany professor has managed to get the ball rolling on the agroecology deal which they're hoping to turn into a degree program, and the initial course is being offered summer quarter. (SCI 298, 5 credits, 9:30-12:50 lecture TTh, 2-4:30 lab TH. It would satisfy one of my Natural World requirements.) I really want to take this.
If I take 5 credits, I might as well take 10 so I can get the bus pass. If I take 10 credits I might as well take 12 so I can get financial aid. And then the bile starts to rise because I think about all those afternoons of knitting and gardening and turning my room into an atelier that I was planning...
What would you do, in my shoes? |
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[May. 13th, 2008|01:29 pm] |
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) najalaise, a charming young lady I stumbled across on OKstupid a few months ago, had coffee & Uwajimaya insanity with once, and then got too busy to properly stay in touch with (it appears to be mutual, so I don't feel too bad) has opened an etsy shop of fancy hand-dyed eggs. Several of you would be interested, I think. This one is crying out to be owned by vghoul, IMO.
Go take a look! |
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| How much change do you have? |
[May. 13th, 2008|04:19 pm] |
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The world hates change, yet it is the only thing that has brought progress. -Charles Kettering
We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance. -Harrison Ford
You must be the change you wish to see in the world. -Mohandas Gandhi
It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad. -C. S. Lewis |
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| In this world of toil and sin, your head grows bald, but not your chin |
[May. 13th, 2008|08:13 pm] |
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http://sideshow.me.uk/smay08.htm#05132047 Christy Hardin Smith on The Betrayal Of American Values: "At a time when the top DOD adviser to military commissions has been barred from participation in hearings at Gitmo, questions are being asked -- and ought to be -- about the propriety, legality, and politicization of what should have been a whole host of decisions founded in the rule of law and in pursuit of justice. That this is no longer the first expectation when examining the record is testament to how far we have fallen in the last few years."Tell the Senate: Stop Big Media. (via) Tigris Woods Golf and Country Club. Mother of God! (via) The thing speaks for itself: "Click the Link to listen to Rumsfeld yearn for another 9/11." "Why could Jimmy Carter and Michael Dukakis carry West Virginia, but Al Gore and John Kerry couldn't?" (via) I'm gettin' the feelin' that National Review is, like, all wrong. The Congressman for Kentucky's 3rd, John Yarmuth, is one of the 90 co-sponsors of the Medicare for All legislation, and, DCblogger notes, "He secured $500,000 to address Louisville heath and dental care shortfalls, and $250,000 for eldercare. He got $452,746 for Louisville's emergency food and shelter program. He also has done a bunch of other good stuff not related to healthcare." KY voters in particular might want to look into helping his campaign on the ground (but any American can send bucks). Do You Remember These? (I'm not old enough to remember all of them.) Thanks to Charles for the tip. |
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| Sometimes my father absolutely baffles me. |
[May. 13th, 2008|03:06 pm] |
He's so logical. So sensible. He tracks his gas mileage obsessively. He knows his finances to the penny.
And then there are the decisions that he gets utterly set on, and I can't make the least sense out of. Like yesterday, when I had to debate with him for 50 blocks about why taking Euclid, to get from E. 172 to W. 11th, was NOT a more reasonable choice than taking I-90 (locals will understand why this is so damned baffling, we're talking a total drive time difference of probably close to an hour). And today, when the plan is apparently to come up from their hotel room in Akron (my brother's at Kent), pick me up from work in East Cleveland, and then drive back down to Akron, in rush hour, because "there are all sorts of restaurants and a movie theatre right across from our hotel". Keep in mind, I need to be back in Cleveland, at home, no later than 10pm or so if I'm going to have a hope in hell of being functional tomorrow. Keep in mind that Cleveland has no shortage of movie theatres. No shortage of restaurants. No shortage of these things paired together. WTF, Dad, WTF? Really, if you're set on chain restaurants (my folks seem to have a thing for them), I can and will find them for you up here. I just don't understand why I'm going to spend an extra two hours, minimum, in the car, when we've only got about five to spend together today, in order to get to something that's perfectly available here.
Edit: Finally convinced him that Valley View, and the innumerable restaurants around it, was a better option than driving to Akron just because he already knew where they were down there. Hoorah! |
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