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[Mar. 10th, 2003|10:28 am] |
I saw Paula last night. It'd been quite a while since the last time... at least it felt like it had been. Nicole who does not go to school here was there as well. Fun times, mostly involving cuddling. I came out of my funk as Paula snuggled me. It just made me feel... comforted, really. I drew a measure of quiet from her softness. It was nice to see her and get that unconditional comforting. Very good. I don't appreciate her enough.
There were ulterior motives to the cuddling. A small wiggle, a bit of bridging in the right place can do a great deal for someone who's been moping all evening about their partner not wanting to put out. Subtle, blah blah, I don't think we were fooling the other two people in the room. And the important thing is that Paula knew. And I knew. This goes against my policy and morality. I've been a bad kitty.
Nicole who does not go to school here (that is, ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) nicole81) now has a standing offer for... I'm not quite sure. I think it was a generalized offer for sex (though that's probably a qualified offer, given the kind of sex I have semi-casually) or possibly kink. I got a warm fuzzy when Myke and Paula both pointed at me as an icon of pistachio wackiness. I have a reputation for perversion, and I savor the small-scale notoriety.
If more people weren't so possessive of their partners, I think we'd all be a good deal happier. It's not like there's a scarce amount of Paula sex to go around; it makes perfect sense to take the pressure off the partner who doesn't put out 'enough', doesn't it? People frequently don't match up sex-wise, how come they have to shoehorn themselves into an intrinsically unfulfilling situation?
Feh. It's probably much less simple if you don't usually think of poly as a solution to everyone's relationship problems. Someone said that Lee and I IM each other like we're conducting a business deal. Do all poly people do that? Are we always negotiating? Is it one big contractual complexity thing? |
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